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But I suddenly feel heavy ache in my neck, without any reason.  I can not move right, and for other direction, I can move but with strong obatacle...

What's wrong with me...

Hope I will feel better later, I am afraid of sick.  I can not be sick anyway.

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颈椎弧度消失，骨质增生，左肩斜方肌硬如铁石……]]> ]]> Thu, 14 Aug 2008 08:41:19 +0800
I am lazy in writing blog.  I am lazy in writing system codes.  I am lazy in daily business activities.  ......  Maybe the only thing I am doing is gaming, wow, for the last 15 days.

Why?  As I have planned to lauch a new web site on Aug.15th, I should have been busy with coding, testing.  But actually I am not.  How can I change it?  I really want to do something, then I should keep myself devote to it.  I am not suggested to play game for such long time...

Change!  Wake up the energy!!!!!!


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I have a lot of codes that can be partly used in current project.  But I do have problems when I tried to connect to Access using ASP under Vista 64.

I have done all the things as I wrote here before, but it still not works.  The only difference between the system I am using now and before is that now I am using Vista 64 while at that time I was using 32.

So, after wandering a lot of pages that the search engine gave me, I find the answer finally.  As MS is not going to make Vista 64 support OLEDB provider, I have to open the 32 support in IIS7 under application pool.  Simple?  But really action.

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Things not belong to work, still Dream

I got two dreams every night these days...the first one is always fighting...I dont know why.  I waked up in the evening for the dream and found out it was 2am...what I am thinking about...terrible!

another is always related to someone.  last night is different to the day before yesterday.  I huged and kissed...

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What the hell I am thinking...I really dont know.]]> ]]> Mon, 28 Jul 2008 09:08:06 +0800
But, but, I dared not to do so, even in dream...what kind of thought...Dream is dream, most time I can do what I want to do.  But when I was in dream last night, facing the one I wanna hug, I just stand there without doing anything...

What a strange action...

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It is said, what you think too much in daily life, what you got when you sleep.  I dont believe, because I had been thinking about something all day long without any related dreams at night.  But for several nights, I mean recently, I had the nearly same dream, same person, same action...
And, are these dreams really representing what I do think about deeply in my soul?  If the answer is true, what should I do...Sometimes, I really do not want to wake up even I know that I am dreaming.  I just want to remain in it, pretend that all the world is mine.

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I have been long in sadness with smile, dispointed with hope and despair with dream.  Life for me is a movie without NG, but the scripts are wrong somewhere...

I dont like to remain conscious at this moment of time, but I really am.  Maybe I should forget that day and just pretend that Nothing is different from those of last several months. 

At the same time, do I ever think about that If my effort really take effect now...Am I able to solve all my problems?

What a tired life.  Only feel happy when I am with my friends.]]> ]]> Sun, 20 Jul 2008 07:32:24 +0800
It is said our brain will be smart in the moring.  I tried to look into myself in the morning.  I feel like that I am a third one looking at a movie stared by myself.  So clearly, worthness, sadness, love, work, and all, but, no way to change it.  As a movie, all are already written down in the script...Why?  I myself should be the director of my movie or I can just be a puppet controled by someone in misterious...

Friend tells me, I am too nice to friends, especially for girls.  I know that, but I can not change.  Everyone has his own action habbit and in my mind, friend is those who worth my kindness.  For example, friends are those who can borrow 100 from mewhen I have only 100 with me and those who are more than only friend in my mind can borrow 1000 from me when I still only have 100 with me.  I will cover another 900 just because they do need this.

So my life is my choice, even this choice is already written some where...We are alive for certain reason.  As I choose to live this way, so just try to enjoy it, no  matter happy or upset or even despair.

Memos for myself

Id card, citizen certificate need to be updated.  That means I have to contact my step-father...
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At the end of the world,I miss nobody else but you.I miss your sleepy face,I miss your slowly pace.
I remember every sweet moment that you gave me and shared with me,I remember every piece of broken heart you left to me when you were not by my side.
Love is all about hurt and missing.The day you can really understand my words here,then it's the day when we are really in love.
Distance can't make love beautiful,but it just make us forget each other.You know what I have got to know the result at the very first beginng but I tried everything I can to deny that.
My love,love become a real tragedy and how can you feel that.
You are in my heart so I feel your pain so I touch your sorrow.
Darling,I'm not in your heart so you don't feel my love so you don't touch my missing you.
The worst way to miss someone is to sitting right beside him knowing you can't have him,and the worst thing I love you is that I see you in the other side of the world knowing we can never be together.
I don't really believe in faith,but I think I believe it now.Because we are different,because we are from a different world so that it is sure by the moment we met that we can't get together.
Forget about lovers and forget about marrige.The only meaning why I exist no longer exist anymore.
Tears can just make others feel that you are weak,but I can't help crying.I don't know why I have definitely paid my true heart just to win such result at the end.
But love,but you my love,there is one thing that you should remember and have to remember,that is,even though it may be the end of the world today,I will still be by your side.So don't be afraid my dearest,because there is finally someone who will be right there loving you ,holding you at the end of the world when anybody else is leaving you alone.
Don't feel the end of the world, because I'm still there, and I still love you.
在世界的末日到来时，我心里只想着你没别人，我想念着你睡眼惺忪的脸庞，你那慢慢的步调。
我记得你我在一起时共同分享和拥有的美好时刻，我还记得没有你的时刻给我带来的伤心与痛楚。
爱其实是充满了伤害与相思。只有你真正读懂这句话，我们才能真正的相爱而彼此不会互相伤害。
距离是不会让爱变的更美好，他只会冲淡我们彼此的记忆。你知道吗？每次相爱，在一开始我心里就清楚这又将是一次爱的悲剧，但是无论如何我也无法阻止这悲剧的发生，你对此有何感想？
我把你装在心里，这样我可以感觉到你的痛楚，抚摸你的伤痕；亲爱的，但是我知道你心里没有我，所以你根本不清楚我有多麽的思念你。
当你喜欢的人坐在你身边，然而你自己心里清楚的明白你无法拥有他，这是世界上最惨的爱情。而我们之间最惨的是我们相隔两处，永远无法在一起。
我从来都不相信什么信念之类的精神依靠，不过现在我信了。因为我们的特殊，我们属于另一个世界，那么尽管我们现在远隔天涯，但是我们心灵是相通的。
让那些情侣之间的亲亲我我还有更近一步的婚姻都见鬼去吧！
以前我所存在的意义已经一去不返。
眼泪只会让别人觉得你的懦弱，但是我仍止不住要大声的去哭泣。因为我无法理解为什么我曾经真心的彻底的全心投入的为之做出巨大付出的爱情到头来得到一个这样的结果。
但是我永远的思念啊，有一件事是你应该记住，并且应该镌刻在心的就是即使到了世界末日，我也不会把你抛弃，我会留在你身边。
不要害怕亲爱的，不管怎样你会找到一个爱你的人，一个即使所有人都弃你而去他还会陪在你身边的人。
不要对这个世界失去信心，因为你还有我，我依然爱你。
.....................love all about love.........................
I got this from one of my best friend's site.  And I can really express what I am thinking about love...
Distance and also time, is a terrible thing for love if distance exists...
]]> ]]> Fri, 18 Jul 2008 01:22:44 +0800 It should be awake for me as my age, experience, but I am dreaming.

Just a conversation with friend.  She is trying to make me awake, but I think the only one can wake me up is myself.  The situation is someway like my another friend.  Maybe someday, I tell myself, hey, buddy, you should wake up.  Then I am awake.

Dream can be nice, and it also could be harmful.  No dream, no hope, but also no hurt...

I dont know..should I go to dream...That's the only thing I should do for this moment.
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